An Observation About Myself

I’ve come to the realization that when things get tough for me in one part of my life I tend to retreat, think of all the worst case scenarios, and hope they don’t happen. I also tend to panic and freak out about every other part of my life and figure all that is going to shit as well. I usually pull things together and figure them out, but why is my first reaction to retreat to my corner and batten down the hatches? In the end I pull it together and pull something out, but why am I not more proactive from the beginning? Why do I just let life and others figure out where things will go for me?

I have no answers; it’s just an observation.