Defending the Raven

Bisexual. Married. Man. Open. Read On.

Ditto That

I’m back from hiatus. Hope you all have missed me? Why the absence. I don’t know, it’s not that I haven’t had plenty to talk about. I’ve had 3 or 4 blog posts marinating in my head, but no motivation to write. However, over at Life Ajar read yesterday’s post… then come back.

So here’s what I started writing in response:

I have no other comment than I understand you so completely. I don’t ahve the answers and I wish I did. My wife spent all of last week working really hard with a big event at work. We barely saw each other — two ships passing in bed. She was exhausted come Sunday and didn’t recover until Tuesday. There was a comicly hysterical attempt at sex on Sunday night. I wanted to pounce. She was too tired to work hard and wanted it slow and steady. It just didn’t mesh. It was fine. I can understand when life intervenes and gets in the way. And last week was certainly a special week. But it can still be frustrating.

At this point thought the worst part is that she says she wants me too and has missed me as much as I have her, but nothing. Absolutely nothing besides Sunday. I don’t want to initiate because she says she really wants me. I kinda want her to prove it. Surprisingly it’s not really upsetting me… yet. Actually up until yesterday I had gone about a week without even jerking off. I can’t recall a time when I’ve gone so long without. It was almost like I went celibate waiting for her. Well couldn’t wait any longer, but that was her loss (porn star is the only way I can describe the eventual release)

We have relatives visiting for the weekend and some of them are staying with us so that always makes things more complicated. Hopefully this Sunday night will be different. I want her. I want more, but I know that when I get down on myself about it. When I focus and obsess on it. I end up making it worse for myself.

So I completely understand where LifeAjar is coming from. I’m with him. But we’ve had the talk. Circumstances have gotten in the way recently. I figure I don’t need to mention it more. It’ll happen. And if it doesn’t I guess I’ll make it happen. And if it doesn’t happen then — then we have bigger problems, but I don’t think it’ll come to that.





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May 5, 2006 - Posted by | Uncategorized

3 Comments »

  1. Maybe I was bring an insensitive smuck. Insensitive to her life and all that is going on. But at the same time, I’m desperately trying to be sexually faithful to my marriage where busyness doesn’t fulfill my needs and makes me feel neglected and ignored. I’m amazed at my selfishness sometimes.

    Erodoux @ LifeAjar

    Comment by Anonymous | May 8, 2006 | Reply

  2. you always have such a logical take on everything… helps put things in perspective.

    Comment by P/O | May 8, 2006 | Reply

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    Comment by I LUV CATS | July 10, 2006 | Reply


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